[[My Endless Journey in life]]*

Friday, August 27, 2004

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Here i am again, facing the computer with all my thoughts just rushing on my head. I'm a little bit depressed right now, there are so many things that i want to do with my life. The problem is, i don't know where to start. I thank God inspite everything that i've done, i still feel he's always there for me. I always wonder why life, i mean my life is ought to be like this, I always find it hard to please other people, I know I can't please everybody but i often feel that the peolpe that are dear to me seems to see me as if i was a total losser.(ofcourse except my family and friends). Especially __________. It's hard feeling this way but i just can't help it. I know this sounds crazy but i just wanted to let my feelings out, i just needed an outlet.

Maybe what i am feeling right now is a combination of fear and a hopeless girl who just wants everything to be okay. I just can't understand the things that is happening to me, maybe everything has a reason. All i have to do is to keep my faith strong and keep my life going and wait and wait and wait. Life has it's own twists and turns isn't? Life, has struggles for us to meet along the way for us to be a better and stonger persons. Maybe this is what God wants me to realize, that not everything in life and not everything you wanted will be yours. Maybe you asked for it but somebody owns it and deserves it more than you do. A part of me is still crying right now, i'm just feeling hopeless. GOD HELP ME!

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|5:48 PM|